Soundtrack of my Life

My recent playlist:

Fifteen-Swain's first Bike Ride
Johnny Cash
Kind of Like Spitting- NOthing Makes Sense without it
Corrupt Morals-discography
Love- Out here
Crimpshrine- Sound of a New World...
Billy Bragg- Dont Try This At Home

Love- Stand Out
I'm supposed to love you
But I don't know why
'cause you don't want
To have nothing to with me, no
You hurt my feeling
And you make me cry
And it's the kind of thing
That gets next to me
Yes, stand out
Let me tell wahtever you are

Now yoy say your mother taught you
To tell right from wrong
But this will show you
The devine line between a weak and a strong
If you go around blaming people
By the colour of their size
All I can tell you people is
That you're in for a big surprice
Yes, stand out
I think you ought to stand out
So I can say whatever you are
Stand out stand out

Now you supposed to love me
And if you don't know why
Now I'm your ticket to heaven
And that ain't no lie
I see a mass line of jet set
All filled up with hate
You better put some love in his life
Come on, hours getting late
Stand out
I think you ought to stand out

Billy Bragg- You Woke Up My Neighborhood
As I wait for sleep to drag me under
In the evening gloom I sit and wonder
The words I should have said to you
The things I always meant to do
The bad dreams that all came true

Chorus:
You woke up my neighbourhood
Night after night we would row
You woke up my neighbourhood
Things are pretty quiet round here now

When I think of how we were together
I know we couldn't be like that for ever
Beneath the Seven Sister stars
The night we let it go too far
I slept out in the car

Chorus

I remember skipping on the porch tilll it grew cold
I remember feeling like I was eight years old

Somersaults across the lawn
Singing dancing up till dawn
Every now and then we'd have a row
You woke up my neighbourhood
Things are pretty quiet round here now

Chorus (repeat)

Johnny Cash- Sunday Morning Coming Down
Well, I woke up Sunday morning
With no way to hold my head that didn't hurt.
And the beer I had for breakfast wasn't bad,
So I had one more for dessert.
Then I fumbled in my closet through my clothes
And found my cleanest dirty shirt.
Then I washed my face and combed my hair
And stumbled down the stairs to meet the day.

I'd smoked my mind the night before
With cigarettes and songs I'd been picking.
But I lit my first and watched a small kid
Playing with a can that he was kicking.
Then I walked across the street
And caught the Sunday smell of someone frying chicken.
And Lord, it took me back to something that I'd lost
Somewhere, somehow along the way.

On a Sunday morning sidewalk,
I'm wishing, Lord, that I was stoned.
'Cause there's something in a Sunday
That makes a body feel alone.
And there's nothing short a' dying
That's half as lonesome as the sound
Of the sleeping city sidewalk
And Sunday morning coming down.

In the park I saw a daddy
With a laughing little girl that he was swinging.
And I stopped beside a Sunday school
And listened to the songs they were singing.
Then I headed down the street,
And somewhere far away a lonely bell was ringing,
And it echoed through the canyon
Like the disappearing dreams of yesterday.

On a Sunday morning sidewalk,
I'm wishing, Lord, that I was stoned.
'Cause there's something in a Sunday
That makes a body feel alone.
And there's nothing short a' dying
That's half as lonesome as the sound
Of the sleeping city sidewalk
And Sunday morning coming down

When it Pains it Roars.....

Here is what ive been doing. Im tired of typing the story, so im just gonna copy and paste it from another blog i got. In the last week i've had my world turned upside down, shook and then kicked across town. Here is the short version. Sidney messed up Sue(rooomate, the mom) headphones . Sue threatened to spank Sidney, i said HELLS NO!!!!! We left for the day....i was gonna drop off Sid at Nana's and go home by myself to make sure it was ok. Well, after drinking all day Sue and Dave were drunk as hell. (sue is dave's mom) . They told me not to come back. i told them to fuck off i know my rights. My cousin across the street called me saying they were throwing out me and sidneys stuff. So i had to cops go there with me to get all my shit out. Sue was cussing me and cops out, yelling that i was a heroin addict who beats my kid. (if it wasn't so damn serious it would have been funny as hell). The cops arent dumb, they know she was crazy, they know her by name. She will call the cops to help her then cuss them out. So i go stay at Uncle David's and Sid stays at her aunts with Nicole(her mom was visitng because she is doing good). THe cops show up at nanas at 5am!!!! someone called the cops saying i beat sidney so they went to check on her....they left after realizing that someone was making false accusations. Fast forward to 9am that morning....I go to Nana's to help pack Sidneys stuff. Nicole and Nana and Nicoles mom talked about it and Sidney is going to stay in Fairfield with her mom and my in-laws. I would MUCH rather have here there then at nana's house. So they went to Fairfield around 10am...right after i got cussed out by nicoles grandpa cause he thought i had got the cops called to his house, No one told him what was going on i guess. So im banned from Nana's and homelss at this time. IM ready to sleep in my car(i could go to stay with Sidney , but i GOTTA finish school. Im just about done...january). On my way to the park that night to sleep AJ called me and said to come over. HIs mom had over heard us talking and said she wont let me sleep in my car. So now im doing great, im back online so i can make money with dvds, i gotta an asome place to stay..i live a mile from school so i can walk now, and about 2 miles from methadone clinic. IM going to be taking amtrak to Fairfield everyweekend...its only 20 bucks round trip.

SO im happy now. I would rather not live with those people. My cousin hooked me up with them. She didnt know they were drunk crazy people...its ultimatly my fault for not investigating them first myself. I trust my family

Life is good now. i wasnt gonna ask no one to live with them, i dont mind the car...its different when you know you just gotta do it for a minutes...its hard when you dont know how long you are going to be homeless. In january ill have my degree, and i'll be heading about 45 minutes north of here to live...in Fairfield.